All that I do know

First and foremost, here is a huge shout out to my mother-in-law Cathy upon her completion of the Quad Cities Marathon today. Even though I was not there, thanks to her use of Endomondo, I was able to follow along and track her run.

I know that today's technology can be amazing. The site refreshes about every minute and it was so neat to be able to see how she was doing. Even cooler was the ability to send her Peptelk text-to-voice messages along the way. I have no idea if they helped or not...but it certainly kept me from biting my nails off. So proud of you, lady!

Last weekend I went to visit a dear friend in Minneapolis for a 48 hour escape to the big city. We wined, we dined; we walked, we talked. And I ran.

Despite having only slept six hours and drank far too much wine, I dragged myself along the first three miles of this gorgeous 9.25 loop. And I am so glad I did. I know that running in new places is always an eye-opener. Lakes Harriet and Calhoun are surrounded by some of the most beautiful homes, restaurants, and shops and the parallel bike and running paths were chock full of runners, cyclists, and strolling families or families-to-be. So many gaggles of pregnant ladies.

This morning, I ran with Glenna, treading the very familiar loops of the Pinewood-Bayleaf-Hunter's Creek-Mimosa Park neighborhoods. The air was cool, the sky blue, and the conversation stimulating. I know that I will not solve my problems while running, but damn does it feel good to work out the kinks while moving my legs. 2012 has been a weird one, but very instructive - living in the moment has never had more meaning than now.

In other news, this morning's run put me within spitting distance of 500 miles - I might just have to go out for a walk tonight to get there.

Friday

All that I do not know

Many moons ago, somewhere before or just after the turning of the year, I talked about how I felt 2012 was going to be a most auspicious year.

Thus far, 2012 has been peppered with moments of amazingness.

Installing beautiful bamboo floors with a lot of help from some wonderful friends.

Running a sub-2 hour half marathon in hilly Raleigh.

Climbing Buffalo Mountain in Silverthorne, Colorado with family.

Celebrating three years of marriage with an amazing bottle of wine.

But 2012 has also handed out some doozies.

In the spring, I learned that sometime this fall I will be an aunt. I have been taken by surprise how this news has held me captive. The many feelings and faults it has made visible. The many ways it has challenged my understanding of my self and my relationships.

In the early summer, some changes were made at work that required scrambling and spawned one too many of those 2 am panic attacks that rip you from your sleep.

Fall is coming early to North Carolina and my business continues to struggle. Tensions are running high.

The older I get, the more I realize how much I do not know.

And I'm learning to be okay with that fact.